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Battle Cry Skyler Drevan
I’m in a constant battle with myself. A battle that seems to be getting me to a place in the world that is both frightening and depressing. Little is known of the depths of my over imagined relentless pains that overtake me to depths of despair that even psychotherapists cannot reach. It often scares me to know that at any moment I can turn from the world’s happiest man to the least likely to not commit suicide. I know it’s sad to feel that the only reason I do not commit suicide is because it would make far too many people happy. That thought just makes my skin crawl and stomach tighten but I cannot help it, though I often try. Usually when I feel this way, my immediate response is a couple tunes from shock rocker Marilyn Manson and I am feeling OK. His music, though dark and often scary in its own right, gives me a sense of relief that otherwise I would not feel.
Right now I am listening to one of his songs, This Is the New Shit, and I though I feel the same as I did a few moments ago when my melancholy hit me, I do feel a bit of comfort in him right now. I think the problem with me these days lies within my deeply rooted, painstakingly callous insecurities. I fear, greatly fear that is this does not pass within the span of time I am extending it, I will take drastic actions to relieve myself of what I feel is some form of psychological disorder.
I am sick of lying in my bed of infinite sadness and watch as what looks to be a promising future is overcome by deeply rooted fears and atonement. So many days I’ve felt that the only way for me to achieve inner peace was to do what the everyday people do, do what the Madonna’s and Courtney Love’s pf the world do; change religions rapidly, change my image, do yoga or meditate. That may be good for the average overexposed pampered celebrities but for the regular Joe Blow, that transformation into another form of public acceptance isn’t as nurturing they’d like to make it appear to us when preaching of the Kabala and Yoga awareness.
I guess unless I make this transformation into a better person inside, it will never ever show outside. I need to make peace with my demons and introduce myself to the world as the champion I am sure I can be. It begins and ends with yours truly; however, it’s the beginning and ending that scares me.
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