DESCRIPTION
It's a letter to the only guy I've ever loved. it's letting him know how I feel, an opology, and letting him know that I've changed.... well read the thing... what do get out of it?... i never did send it to him.... maybe it's becauce I'm a chicken.... or maybe the fact that I know he wont have me back... and I don't think that I want to be with him anyway so you know... I'm happy with who I am now and who I'm with and I don't want anything to jeperdize that.
"sorry I know wsometimes I can't spell" but enjoy what you read and let me know what you think!!! [232 words]
ABOUT
THE AUTHOR
hello everyone, i hope that you like my work.. i'm a 19 year old girl who uses writing as an outlet.. some of my work isn't the best but there's a few pieces out there worth reading.. i started writing these posts when i was 14.. and i haven't taken the time to weed out really anything that's a little dull.. well anyways.. hope you enjoy what you do read *Smiles* always, ~Carla [January 2009]
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A Letter To You Carla Thomson
Do you still think of me?
I still think of you
I know I used up all my chances
But I still love you
There’s not a single day that goes by
Where I don’t think about you
I look back
And wish I didn’t treat you the way that I did
And I wonder if you’ll ever forgive me
I really wish you would
But I know it’s not that easy
Specially, because of the way I left you
I really wish you understood,
That I never meant to hurt you
But I can tell that you don’t like me as a person,
Not anymore
You have a right to call me a slut, dike, a whore
For that is what I was for a few months or more
But what you don’t realize is that I never lied to you,
Not a single time
And the words I spoke to you were right from the heart
Though some of the things that I said,
I don’t think that you understood
I really hope that when you look back
You don’t think that I was just trying to use you or abuse you
Because I’d never do anything to intentionally harm or hurt you
And I’m sorry if you think that I would
I’m not asking you to be friends with me,
To hang out with me or to talk to me
I’m just asking that you wouldn’t hate me
And maybe someday you’d think about forgiving me
Because I know I can’t stand knowing that my first love hates me.
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