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TITLE (EDIT)
Anger, Depression, Bargaining, Denial, Acceptance. |
DESCRIPTION
The thoughts of Joseph Richard Patterson on November 13th, 2002.
[753 words] |
AUTHOR
Bradley Grimes |
ABOUT
THE AUTHOR
Lives in Pennsylvania.
[September 2005] |
AUTHOR'S E-MAIL ADDRESS
badbradg@yahoo.com |
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Anger, Depression, Bargaining, Denial, Acceptance.
Bradley Grimes
Oh god. Oh shit. Oh fuck. Dammit. How could I? How could I fucking forget. Is there any hope? Jesus. Jesus Fucking Christ. Shit Shit Shit. FUCK!
How could I. One time. One time without a condom. One little fuck up. SHIT SHIT SHIT!
I need a cigarette. No. I need a drink. A big drink. I’m going to drink this one off. I hate God. He really fucked me on this one. I’m going to get so drunk.
God, I’m such a waste. I get, potentially, the most important news of my life and I’m talking about drinking. I could have been doing so many other things. I chose to have sex. I’m such a waste of fucking life. The ultimate trash. I should have never been born. None of this would be happening. Like last week you were driving to work. There was an accident on the side of the road. You kept saying Jesus people learn how to drive. Just cause you were in traffic. And then when you got there you were rubber necking trying to see what happened. And all those times you called off work and weren’t really sick. Grow up. You smoke. You’re a smoker. I was just asking for this eventually. Such a loser. Big time.
It happened so fucking fast.
Jesus please don’t let this happen. Oh god let me take back time. One month. Please. It was an accident. A mistake.
I’ve been a good person. I’ve been an excellent person. Pay my taxes. I donate. I volunteer. Well not lately. But I have. I forget for a little while and this is what happens. I’ve been busy lately. I can’t do everything. There’s five hundred nine hundred ninety nine billion other people on the planet. Why do I have to be the only one that volunteers? I help my mother. I go and see her once a week. She always has things around the house for me to do. And last week at church, I gave an extra ten dollars. Church. That’s where I met her. Dammit. One time. That’s all it took. Fuck.
I help more. I’ll be a better person. I’ll stop smoking. I’ll exercise. I’ll adopt a kid. I’ll start going to church every Sunday. No. I’ll start going to church everyday. And I’ll pray. I’ll be kinder. I’ll give more money to those people with the bells outside K-mart. Please I’ll do anything.
This can’t be happening. Wait… no. This is isn’t happening. It’s a dream. I’m dreaming. I have to be. This doesn’t happen to people like me. I’m going wake up soon. Very soon. This must be a dream. It feels like a dream. Nothing feels real anymore. I’ll pinch myself. I’ll pinch myself and I’ll wake up. No. Shit. I didn’t. This is real.
There’s a mistake with the test. There’s no way. It was just one time. I can’t be. I’ll get another test. But it says I am. It can’t be wrong. Can it? Maybe they got my sample mixed up with someone else’s. This isn’t mine. Things like this don’t happen to people like me. They seriously don’t. Fuck.
Maybe it’s a trick. It could be. This is some reality show. If I just give them the depressed individual look someone will come running out. They’ll tell me it was a joke set up by my friends. I’ll laugh it off, get drunk and this will all be over. Someone. Please. God fucking dammit.
Is it really true. I’ll get tested again. I’ll do it first thing tomorrow. But it says it. Right there. Positive. I don’t care. It’s not true. But one time. That’s all it took.
But it’s true. These tests wouldn’t be wrong. They can’t be. They’re designed to test for it. Such a stupid decision. But one I’ll have to live with. Can I? I could end this now. I fucked up. I fucked up real bad. How can I take it back? I can’t. They’ll find a cure. It’s not over till it’s over. Do you really believe that? Is there anything else to believe at this point? That’s going to be the only thing that keeps me alive. The fact that there may be someday a cure. I feel like crying. Go ahead. It will make you feel better. It won’t do any good. When the tears are done, reality will still be there. Let ’em flow. I already am. I have AIDS.
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STORYMANIA PUBLICATION DATE
January 2005 |
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